Food. For, erm, thought.

[triedunture]

1. Meditation

It's cold as a bitch out! I went to my meditation group this morning, and the walk left me so incredibly freezing. I like my meditation group, but everyone else in the group seems to take it WAY seriously. Like, yeah, I believe a little quiet head-time is a good thing, but I don't think there's this major BLARGH epiphany you're supposed to be getting. You know? It just seems a lot of people treat the meditation practice like therapy when it's the farthest thing from being you-centric. Does that make sense? What I mean is, sometimes it seems like the people in my meditation group expect meditation to help solve all their problems. And I'm like, whoa, guys, um, unlikely? But I don't want to say anything because I'm the youngest and everyone sort of looks upon me as a very adorable little...cuddly raccoon of a beginner? WE'VE ALL GOT ISSUES IS WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY.


2. Food

I have been hungry all day. For dinner, I am going to cook this pasta with vodka sauce.

3. Fry and NYC

As cerublu02 has pointed out, Mr Fry is going to be in our fair city until the end of January and honestly, it's got me a little on edge. Every time I find myself in midtown, I am on pins and needles, trying to keep alert for anything 6'9" giants prowling about on the sidewalk. Which is silly because a) the odds of running into a single person in New York is like a billion to one and b) I wouldn't even know what to do if I did. So I will watch Mr Laurie host SNL tonight, and I will try very hard not to get too worked up over it. And I know this is strange, and maybe those that live in London can tell me if this is normal, but knowing that Mr Fry is in town...I dunno, it just makes me happy. All week if I got blue, I just told myself, hey, Mr Fry might be walking not two blocks from here, you know. And it would cheer me up immensely. Which is also silly, because it's not as if geographical distance helps impart a person's awesomeness in any way! GAH!

4. Fics

I still have several old ideas for Jooster fics rolling around in my head as well as a rough outline of a Cap/Iron Man story (I think it'll be told in small chunks with each chapter-chunk not necessarily going in chronological order but covering the time since Cap was taken out of the ice and ending with seeeeeeeex; maybe called something like "What Happened When" and each chapter can be titled "What Happened When: Tony Quit Drinking" por ejemplo).

BUT I also have this other Jooster idea. And it's very dark. Not dark like Long Road dark; dark like sexually dark. And kind of ooky. I dunno if it's something that would appeal to many people, but I've been wrong before?

Can I tell you my idea? Oh, maybe you don't want to be spoiled in case it does get written?

I'll make some spoiler space. K?

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OK. I think that's plenty.

So my idea revolves around Jeeves discovering that Bertie swings more towards chaps then fillies in a very NOT cute and romantic way.

In a nutshell, he finds Bertie very obviously involved with another gentleman.

Probably on the piano?

Anyway, he's hurt because (duh) he's always wanted Bertie and now that he's finally found out Bertie is an invert, he can't act on it because Bertie is seeing this other gentleman.

This gentleman will have to be an OC, I think. I just like the Drones Club boys too much to do to them what I'd have to do with this guy. I mean, Bertie's boyfriend (erm, there MUST be a better word for that?) is a bit of a bastard. He's not EVIL, per se, and he's not abusing Bertie. Except maybe he abuses his trust?

WHY DON'T I JUST TELLING YOU THE WHOLE SODDING IDEA?

The OC gentleman keeps pushing Bertie to do more and more things he's not comfortable with, sexually. OOKY THINGS. (Can't tell what, it's an angsty secret.) And Jeeves is in the awkward position of being the only other person that knows Bertie's secret, so Bertie is constantly asking his advice and Jeeves doesn't know how to manipulate the situation without, you know, manipulating the situation, and he doesn't want to do that, now that he's on the wrong side of someone else's manipulations (the OC's).

Anyway. So it would be very angsty and icky in that Bertie is not with Jeeves.

*head scratch* Does that sort of thing even sound at all like a good idea? It would def. NOT be a feel-good holiday fic. *frown*

Maybe later this winter? Why don't you tell me what YOU think?