Food. For, erm, thought.

[triedunture]

1. Meditation

It's cold as a bitch out! I went to my meditation group this morning, and the walk left me so incredibly freezing. I like my meditation group, but everyone else in the group seems to take it WAY seriously. Like, yeah, I believe a little quiet head-time is a good thing, but I don't think there's this major BLARGH epiphany you're supposed to be getting. You know? It just seems a lot of people treat the meditation practice like therapy when it's the farthest thing from being you-centric. Does that make sense? What I mean is, sometimes it seems like the people in my meditation group expect meditation to help solve all their problems. And I'm like, whoa, guys, um, unlikely? But I don't want to say anything because I'm the youngest and everyone sort of looks upon me as a very adorable little...cuddly raccoon of a beginner? WE'VE ALL GOT ISSUES IS WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY.


2. Food

I have been hungry all day. For dinner, I am going to cook this pasta with vodka sauce.

3. Fry and NYC

As cerublu02 has pointed out, Mr Fry is going to be in our fair city until the end of January and honestly, it's got me a little on edge. Every time I find myself in midtown, I am on pins and needles, trying to keep alert for anything 6'9" giants prowling about on the sidewalk. Which is silly because a) the odds of running into a single person in New York is like a billion to one and b) I wouldn't even know what to do if I did. So I will watch Mr Laurie host SNL tonight, and I will try very hard not to get too worked up over it. And I know this is strange, and maybe those that live in London can tell me if this is normal, but knowing that Mr Fry is in town...I dunno, it just makes me happy. All week if I got blue, I just told myself, hey, Mr Fry might be walking not two blocks from here, you know. And it would cheer me up immensely. Which is also silly, because it's not as if geographical distance helps impart a person's awesomeness in any way! GAH!

4. Fics

I still have several old ideas for Jooster fics rolling around in my head as well as a rough outline of a Cap/Iron Man story (I think it'll be told in small chunks with each chapter-chunk not necessarily going in chronological order but covering the time since Cap was taken out of the ice and ending with seeeeeeeex; maybe called something like "What Happened When" and each chapter can be titled "What Happened When: Tony Quit Drinking" por ejemplo).

BUT I also have this other Jooster idea. And it's very dark. Not dark like Long Road dark; dark like sexually dark. And kind of ooky. I dunno if it's something that would appeal to many people, but I've been wrong before?

Can I tell you my idea? Oh, maybe you don't want to be spoiled in case it does get written?

I'll make some spoiler space. K?

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OK. I think that's plenty.

So my idea revolves around Jeeves discovering that Bertie swings more towards chaps then fillies in a very NOT cute and romantic way.

In a nutshell, he finds Bertie very obviously involved with another gentleman.

Probably on the piano?

Anyway, he's hurt because (duh) he's always wanted Bertie and now that he's finally found out Bertie is an invert, he can't act on it because Bertie is seeing this other gentleman.

This gentleman will have to be an OC, I think. I just like the Drones Club boys too much to do to them what I'd have to do with this guy. I mean, Bertie's boyfriend (erm, there MUST be a better word for that?) is a bit of a bastard. He's not EVIL, per se, and he's not abusing Bertie. Except maybe he abuses his trust?

WHY DON'T I JUST TELLING YOU THE WHOLE SODDING IDEA?

The OC gentleman keeps pushing Bertie to do more and more things he's not comfortable with, sexually. OOKY THINGS. (Can't tell what, it's an angsty secret.) And Jeeves is in the awkward position of being the only other person that knows Bertie's secret, so Bertie is constantly asking his advice and Jeeves doesn't know how to manipulate the situation without, you know, manipulating the situation, and he doesn't want to do that, now that he's on the wrong side of someone else's manipulations (the OC's).

Anyway. So it would be very angsty and icky in that Bertie is not with Jeeves.

*head scratch* Does that sort of thing even sound at all like a good idea? It would def. NOT be a feel-good holiday fic. *frown*

Maybe later this winter? Why don't you tell me what YOU think?

Comments

[brewsternorth.livejournal.com]

1. Yeah, sounds a bit... cart before the horse frankly.

2. Nummy!

4. Sounds like an interesting character exploration indeed - the paragon and the paramour being at odds rather than being one and the same, for once. Best, as you say, saved for later in the season.

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

1. I know, right?

2. It didn't come out TOO great. I think I just don't like vodka sauces. I always thought I disliked the canned ones because they were lacking, but now this homemade one has also disappointed. :\

4. I NO RITE? A battle of wits and emotional...thingummies. Sounds more like a New Year's fic to me.

[dodificus.livejournal.com]

I like the sound of the fic, I know you could do it without it being over the top and crazy. And yeah, I very much want to see how Jeeves would handle such a situation....and well, hopefully alls well that ends well? This was my non subtle hint for a happy ending, I can not only put up with but *enjoy* a whole lot of angst if there's a light at the end of the tunnel.

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

Guuuuuuys. It's me! The ending will be happy! :)

[muhsilisk.livejournal.com]

I think I understand #3. As in, I'd probably feel the same.
No matter how much I think about it, it doesn't make sense, but maybe knowing that some amazing person I've always admired from a distance is somewhat "close" to me makes them more... real? Maybe that's just me, but I find it hard to accept celebrities as "real" people, and knowing that they are physically close enough to me that I could actually (however small the chances are) see them in person and see that they really do exist... yeah. Can be quite exciting.
I don't freak out every time I go to Berlin because Jürgen Vogel and what do I know which people live there, though. This doesn't make sense D:


For the Jooster idea:

YES PLEASE. ANY TIME. (Happy Ending would be nice, though)

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

Yes to all you said re: 3.
Also:
Guys, it IS me. The ending will be happy. :)

[mxdp.livejournal.com]

Ok. Last thing I do before sleeping. THEH HONOR.

1. You sound too much like me. ^^ I couldn't keep it all serious either, so I went to a sort of self-defense group with some friends: waaaaay more fun, and you get to kick people.

2. YUM.

3. I was just thinking about that when I saw your name on Twitter. I went all SRTDJHQYlucky girl EVEN IF I KNOW YOU PROBABLY WON'T SEE HIM, and that the fact that he's there doesn't change a thing. I know, but I completely understand, that's what I'm trying to say. *sighs*
The last time he came to Belgium is, as we all know, 1995. And he was not very happy. :c

4. the J/W spoiler. Of course I read it. Duh. AND OMG IF YOU DON'T WRITE IT I'LL COME TO NY MYSELF AND I'LL FORCE YOU. *sighs* How do you come up with these? You MUST write it. I don't care if it's not holiday-genre, I don't care if you have doubts, or a life, I want to read it ASAP, PLZ.
And if you want to make it holiday, well, just trow in a happy J/w ending by the Christmas tree. ^^

Goodnight! :D

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

4. I come up with these things by...I dunno, thinking of different kinds of sexy times? I will write it, I promise. It's already begun. AND IT'S ME, SO THE ENDING WILL BE HAPPY.

[mxdp.livejournal.com]

Yessssss. :D

[blackletter]

3. I do that too. Not that famous people often end up where I live, but, yeah...it makes my home city feel a little more special.

4. I love this idea. I really really love it and would read it with great pleasure.

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

Sweet, thank you.

[podfic-lover.livejournal.com]

2. Sounds and looks delicious. Maybe I'll try it tomorrow. I still have some wodka left over from the last party.

4. I definitively would read this story, because I love dark and angsty. But I'm also a real softie, so a happy ending would be great.

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

1. May I suggest cooking the vodka in the pan a weeeeee bit longer than you might otherwise? I think my impatience left me with a sauce that is a bit overpowered, vodka-wise.

2. Guys, it's me! The ending will be HAPPY.

[clairefry.livejournal.com]

4. I think this would be a really excellent story - a very different avenue for Jooster fics to stroll down! But being the soft-hearted gal I am, I've got to put my name to the list of your other posters who've said that it would be nice to have a happy ending! Cos y'know - Jooster ain't Jooster without a happy ending! :D xx

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

Guys. It's me; the ending will be happy. :D

[clairefry.livejournal.com]

And this is why I love you! Hehe!

[dark-eyed-seer.livejournal.com]

I want to read this fic. I want to read this fic very much. It would be like, the Christmas fluff overload antidote I always need this time of year.

Of course, I LIKE dark Jooster. And it's been pointed out that I'm a pretty sick girl.

All that being said, please write this. Please? Now that I'll actually have time to READ something not school-related.

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

I'm working on it! But it might not be finished for awhile; lots of burners going.

[cerublu02.livejournal.com]

1. Cuddly raccoon! I'm wrapped in a fleece blanket with my warmest pjs...brrr!

2. I think it's the cold weather! me hungry.

3. SNL! ON NOW! How cute that Stephen tweeted. Bit anxious? I would be for m'colleague, too. Hugh just came on. Oh, bless.

Knowing SF is in NY makes me very happy. And extremely anxious. "He could be passing by me on the street right now."

4. Jooster fics. Yes, please.

Sexually dark Jooster idea sounds fantastic. It would appeal to me. Um. Very much so. As soon as possible, please. No pressure or anything, but throwing the idea out there? MEANS YOU HAVE TO WRITE IT! ;)

Jeeves hesitant to manipulate the situation? Bertie innocently going to Jeeves, yet obviously adult...what with the OOOKY THINGS. I vote for the piano scene (if only because you know Jeeves has harbored this fantasy!) This sounds like it would be awesome as a long fic (that's what you have planned, right?) and ITA with your idea for an OC and not using anyone from the Drones Club.

Just to clarify...when you say Bertie is not with Jeeves...does that mean at all? Though I can see (and trust your writing) how non-Jooster would work, a Jooster ending or even an ending with the possibility of Jooster would get my vote.

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

1. Me too!

2. I know, right?

3. I hadn't seen a whole episode of SNL in awhile, but Hugh's performance was very enjoyable and cute. (But who the fuck is Kanye West? Colbert lulz.)

4. GUYS. It's ME. The ending will be happy. :)

[pinglederry.livejournal.com]

Hey hey, are you around online?

Also, apropos of nothing, are you on Skype?

'cause, I mean, it would definitely help with your phone bills if you and your friend used Skype instead of, you know, phones.

That's all I was thinking of. Honest. Definitely not maybe saying hi. *hides*

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

I am now. And no, I'm not on Skype; tony and I usually g-chat if we're both online. I guess we could voice-chat too, but I just like typing and walking away from the conversation to have a pee or eat a bagel.

[pinglederry.livejournal.com]

I can understand that. IMing is lower-pressure, in some ways. I just felt bad for the whole "monthly phonebills" thing. *g*

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

Oh, we're in each other's Top Five. So it's really not so bad! :D

[emeraldreeve.livejournal.com]

I like the Jeeves and Wooster fic. idea, but only if it has a happy ending. I'm a happy ending girl.

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

Guys, it's ME. The ending will be happiness. :)

[hwshipper.livejournal.com]

YES YES YES write the dark Jooster fic. I'll beta it for you if you want.

I know what you mean about famous folk in town! I remember being just thrilled all the time a few years ago when the cast of Friends were in London to shoot their London ep.

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

I just might have to pop in and ask for that beta somewhere down the road. Thanks!

[cadeira.livejournal.com]

I approve of all of those... slightly weird things going on in your brain and their external manifestations like drowning pasta in alcohol.
If I ever move to London, the fact that Mr Fry will be living in the same city would contribute hugely to my inner chi (um... what?)

[triedunture.livejournal.com]

In the pasta's defense, the alcohol is supposed to cook off leaving a very clean bite to the sauce.

Um...but I guess when you DON'T cook it off very thoroughly, or you use the cheapest vodka you can find, it ends up tasting like you're eating a mouthful of bad vodka?

So it didn't turn out so hot. We all make mistakes!

[lady529.livejournal.com]

Yes, NOM, LOVE and I can't wait : )

The Lady 529

[empressaurelius.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I agree that meditation isn't this huge, all-anwering thing; it helps clear the mind and center you a bit, but other than that....

I think that'd be a great fic.....but I'm hoping it would have a happy ending.